Overthinking

I find myself doing this alot. Alot; to the point that I’m scared to be alone with my thoughts. Overthinking results in only 2 ways (at least for me). Both being extremely dangerous mind sets.


The first kind, is the obvious; the pessimistic outlook. It’s the one where every single detail about something or someone leads to the worst possible situation. This kind of relentless thinking ends up with either a tear running down my cheek or a full fledged sob session.


The second kind, is the less obvious one; the optimistic outlook. This is when something as small as a compliment such as “you’re pretty” leads to me planning our wedding (obviously an exaggeration, but aids my point). This one is ironic because it leads to happiness, but only temporary. It raises hopes, that soar through the sky just to be shot down by reality. This then leads to the first kind of overthinking that intensifies the sadness as the mood swings are at their peak.


However, I know I’m not the only person that goes through this. Most of the people I know tend to overthink. And it’s not healthy!


Another thing that I’ve realised about myself, is that at any given point my mood completely depends on one soul person. Which is again, a really unhealthy routine. And that hurts even more when the person that defines your mood barely gives a damn about you.

Overthinking creates imaginary situation somehow seem real, which often (in my case) blurs the line between reality and fiction.