Month: February 2020

Do I make a difference?

Does my exsistance matter?
Do I impact lives?
Or am I just a heap of litter,
That’s only used to throw.

My heart is continually empty,
As I give more than I take.
And in the end any love I recieved,
Was always just fake.

Now all that’s left,
Is a sordid disfigured face,
All the sleep that I’ve lost,
Left me behind, slow paced.

I couldn’t handle this any longer,
So I stood up and said,
“If I let this prolong,
I’d end up sad, lonely whilst dead.”

I could feel my heart harden,
With each sob that followed.
Forming a shield; less vulnerable,
And a mind less burdened.

-Rabad

Please ignore all the previous blog posts. Re-introduction

Please ignore all the previous blog posts, that was just me as an annoying 5th grader. I mean, she is a pretty cool person but uses way to many exclamation marks.

I could just delete the blogs and save me some embarrassment. However, I’d like to keep it as a reminder to show my future self how much I’ve changed.

By chance if you happen to go through those posts, here is a reminder: I’m not the same person now. And I’m not embassed of the person that I was ( not COMPLETELY true) but I’ve changed throughout the years and somehow managed to actually start liking the person I am.

Recently my dad has pushed me to continue blogging, so I’ve decided to give it a go. Writing is something I’ve always been insecure about. And I’m going to use this as an opportunity to tackle my insecurities.